It is June. I have done very little during the time I've had off school. This is a problem I was dealing with through the end of the last semester where I just couldn't get myself to work on art. I thought at first it could be the pressure of all the deadlines; that I just wanted to be free to work on whatever I wished. It turns out I'm still having a hard time. This brings up several questions regarding what I chose to do for a living: Animation. Why can't I just do it? I love doing it. I'm always happy when I get something done. And I always have fun and feel challenged (in a good way) while I'm animating. It is committing and beginning that is an issue to me.
I can say I am a bit worried about this. I have been trying to set myself some dates and schedules but I fear to say I am not as intimidating to myself as was the fear of disapproval from my teachers. Although I do not think doing things out of fear of approval is the way to go or be happy with your life, I do feel like I have got to start somewhere. Doing something is better than nothing, regardless what the reasons for doing it were.
I like sushi, don't you guys? There is something mystical about those quiet men and women behind the counter... So concentrated.